Broken Hearted But Joyful
So, since my last post, God has been showing me SO much.
First of all, I really had to try to put off my mourning to not ruin the trip at norcal for my friends. It was hard, but I soon just found myself in denial. However, at the end of the trip, God really showed me how to find joy in all this sadness. However, I still asked the question… WHY.
I asked a leader from TCHOC if it HAS to be true that people go to hell if they don’t believe. The leader asked me… if there was a judge and the person standing as the defendant were his son who committed murder, should the judge let his son go? If I were the judge YES. But then, it wouldn’t be JUST and our God is just…. I still couldn’t believe it… My heart was still so broken. That doesn’t really bring me much comfort!
However, I was talking to my mom. I told her I just couldn’t stop feeling sad about it and told her about the conversation I had. She told me that my answer of “yes i’d let my son go” is exactly how God feels! That is WHY he sent Jesus so that He CAN let us go of our sin! However, we must accept Jesus as our lawyer….
I do have one hope though… that during the 24 hours he was in a coma…something happened. His sister said she saw a tear streaking down on his face. At least that’s something I can keep praying and hoping for….
If our hearts break for people in our lives who aren’t even really FAMILY but just CLOSE friends. How much more does God’s heart break for the souls that are lost everyday? This encourages me to spread the gospel some more. Can we really just stand by as our Abba Father cries for these lost souls? Let the church stand up as His bride and TAKE ACTION!
Praise be to the Lord God almighty.
I’m also starting up a prayer book and maybe turning that into a prayer wall in my room. Any prayer requests?
